Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in xrobertxedgex's LiveJournal:

Thursday, August 24th, 2006
2:14 am	Eat shit It's been almost forever since I've typed in this thing. Well, almost forever. Not quite THAT long, but just a smidgen to the left of being forever. - I love my girlfriend more than anything in the world. She is amazing and no one can take what we have. - My band is actually going to be going through some dramatic changes, however, for the better of the concerning members choice. Other than that, we're playing extremely bomb shows with bands I never thought I'd ever share the stage with. - I've made a lot of new friends, while still keeping contact with the same ones. My sister and I are starting to talk a little more, so that's been extremely comforting. - The hardcore scene is getting a little cleaned up more and more each show. I'm beginning to see less and less hair and white belts on dudes than before. - I saw Terror, Comeback and the almighty Gorilla Biscuits tonight, along with Sarah and Brad(HI, SARAH!!!). Which was awesome because I hardly ever see you two "amazings". Yes, I made that word up. - I cut my hair. I couldn't grow it out. No patience. - I haven't gotten in any fights recently. Kudos to me. Good times. Good night. Current Mood: content Current Music: All Shall Perish (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 23rd, 2006
12:03 pm	It's been a whil So, it's been quite some time since I last posted in this B.A.M.F. So, here's just w few updates: - I'm growing my hair back out, long and black to my shoulders. It'll take a while, but it'll get there. - I have the most amazing girlfriend on the face of the fuckin' planet. She is so incredibly perfect and ridiculously amazing and I could not be happier or more in love. - My band is kicking ass. Aside from members leaving in bad blood, we have recruited better, more talented homies. - I'm starting to see all of my old friends that I hadn't seen in a while. All in all, some things, certain things suck, but that's the thing in life you gotta deal with. But for the first time in my 20 years of existence, I am genuinely happy and I feel like I'm where I should be. Current Mood: thankful Current Music: The Acacia Strain (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 16th, 2006
9:49 pm	Oh, Branden, you silly little boy Your futile attempts at seeking revenge by posting a protected entry of Panda lying in your bed is more than I can say being hilarious. I could care less that she is in your room. I don't care that she's with you. As long as she's happy and you're not being the abusive piece of shit she so often tells me you are, I'm happy that she's there. Just don't fuck it up if she's giving you the chance, you silly little cunt. All the words in the world from your homosexually inclined mouth cannot affect me. What affects me, is how shitty you treat and talk to Panda. So, you know what? If you wanna get to me: treat Panda like shit. But we both know you're smarter than that. xXx Oh, and you're retarded little "XbrandenX" shit was almost just as retarded as the entry. Almost, but not quite. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Prayer For Cleansing (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
3:09 am	Where to begin? I feel like the world is pissed off at me. Every one I'm close to and love, I feel is mad at me for something. Even when they tell me and promise me they're not, I still think and feel like they are. Obviously, I think too much. But I can't help it. Everyday, I try harder and harder to think everything is going to be okay, but my emotions(being my worst fuckin' enemy) completely spin me around and tell me otherwise. I don't even know what the fuck I'm doing with myself anymore. I'm so lost with so many things. Who even cares anymore? I don't. I'm more worried about my friends than I am with myself. Ha ha. I'm really happy about that fact, too. I love my friends more than anything. Especially myself. Jesus, I don't even know why I'm so hard on myself. Fuck. I hate the way I feel right now. Being alone and thinking about too much all at once sucks. Got to talk to Panda on the phone for the firs time. I've known her for a while and seen her many times, yet, I barely talked to her last night. Although, the conversation angered me in the beginning due to her ex, it was calmed and became quite lovely. Sarah: We need to hang out. Learn bass and play for my band. You're awesome. Period. I miss Laura. I got a message from her earlier that was very comforting to read. I don't think I can ever truely be mad at her. But I think she's pretty pissed at me right now for some reason. I hope she's not, but if she is, it wouldn't be the first time. I'm used to it, I guess. We should talk more. I think I should just re-tie the noose and give it a 14th shot. Thanks for reading if you did. xXx Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Shai Hulud (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
12:18 am	Sarah Edge and Manda Panda My only two friends in livejournal at this given time. And I must admit, the only two I really care to have reading my thoughts. Sure, there may be more in the future, but I have this thing solely because Sarah convinced me to get it. She's pretty persuasive and awesome like that. Sarah is awesome and amazing and I can not be more happy to know someone as comforting and encouraging as her. Panda is lovely. Period. Such an amazing heart, eyes, smile and personality, it is beyond me why this piece of shit, Branden feels it's necessary to bring her down. Take it from me, hun, no one should treat you that way. Don't give him the pleasure of being the only one. I love my Kitten. This is my first entry. As of right now, things are on the "double edged sword" side. I love that expression. Double edged sword. My friends, my band, shows, and my new job are going awesome. I love my friends with all my heart, I love my bandmates/brothers with all my heart and the music we make, I'm nervous about the new job, but it'll go smooth, and shows are kickin' ass and coming one right after another. However, a lot of people have been dragging me down. Somehow, people seem to think that I belong to them, simply by talking to me or giving me one kiss. I am not looking to be owned by anyone(except Panda. She owns me and always will). It's very frustrating when you're the unwanted being wanted. When did I become something to be had? I'm nothing great to be looked at in anyones eyes, nor am I some prized possesion to be won. Fuck. I hate having a heart sometimes. But I can't help but be nice to everyone I care about. I don't know. I'll feel better when I talk to Sarah and Panda. They both are amazing and always make me smile. Thanks for reading if you did. xXx Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Remembering Never (3 Comments |Comment on this)